Up the stairwell

Chip fat grey and london green with damp

Out on the fifth floor where the wind grips your jaw

And holds you in its clamp

There's a red door bordered by mottled glass

And inside a lighted lamp

Pius live here

Pius is tired but can't sleep she twitches wired

She lies beside a sleeping body a girl she barely knows

She met her in the pub and it went the way it goes the girl's name is rose

But pius is lovesick for her thorne

She left her in the summer

And since then pius can't get warm

She's carried her stuck in her side since the day that she was born

She dreamed of her and knew her shape long before she saw her form

Well it's 04:18

And pius has been staring at the blinds for hours

She tells herself it's all her fault

She doesn't love she just devours

Can't sleep so much to do

Tryna get closer to you and you're so far away

Tryna get hold of what's true and what's true isn't true when it's day

Tell me how can I sleep got so much to do

I'm trying to get closer to you and you're so far away

All that I say and I do are things that you do and you say

How come I'm becoming the one that I'm running from

Hunted by slurring my words in the pub feeling nervous and overexcited

Arms 'round the waist of a girl who might make it alright for a night

Yeah she takes me to places then I lie beside of her wake while she sleeps

And I feel much closer to you than I felt

When you were still here spill beer till you reappear

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

Pain in my liver okay shame

So much shame can't bear my frame can't bear your name okay

Can't bear this game let's play new rules old rituals

Guilt trip heartstrings snap want to can't go back too much

Not enough I can't get your claws out my gut

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

This is my mind get out of it

You didn't want it how come you're still hanging around in it

This is my body let go of it

You didn't want it how come you're still f**king controlling it

This is my night get lost in it

This is my bridge stop crossing it

This is my face stop smiling

This is my space you've been gone so long

How come I still find you hiding

fighting me I'm fighting my darkest parts

I'm fighting nighatmres tied to my hands 'round my own throat

'Cause you're the snake charmer and I'm the old rope

No hope just go now please just leave

Still in the air that I breathe I'm stranded

Arms outstretched from my body anybody

Here's a body but I wake up and I can't stand them

I feel so grubby

Don't want can't stop just love me

Breath like a cigarette stubbed in the gutter

Come close no wait don't touch me I'm ugly

Pushing for a phonecall beep beep

Looking through names for the one that feels most dangerous

I can't believe you're in love again

I can't open my heart to anybody but strangers

I thinking of you

And the things you do to me

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me

I'm thinking of you

And the things you do to me