After a storm

I wanna be brave

And keep you warm

And not fade away

Yeah c call me a sinner

Yeah call me a sinner

Yeah I lose a little faith

Then I take a little taste

Now I'm feel like a winner

Ou I fiend that good feedback

I wanna relapse till I relax

You would think that I'm dying

But I'm just stuck and I need that

I wanna fly a little bit just a little bit longer

I don't wanna come down

I'm just lying to myself should have been a bit stronger

Running till I numb out

And tomorrow's the day that my cycle will end

But today I'll get strung out

So I need you to stay for the night hold me tight

Cause my mind is so run down

I can't focus on getting better when I'm setting myself up

****it I'm feeling better when I'm letting myself buzz

Feels good baby

It's healing my wounds when I'm under the weather

Wishing I could settle or feel loved

Uh when you call me out I get a rush

Then you calm me down but I'm ****ed

Can't stop me now

And it sucks you gotta leave once you lock me down

Thought I made it but I'm feeling stupid now

Drinking till I'm falling cause my mind is so polluted now

I just wanna be free

I just wanna be free I just wanna be free

Please let me breathe

I just wanna be me I just wanna be me

Oh please don't leave

After a storm

I wanna be brave

And keep you warm

And not fade away

Enable me baby

I'm so unstable I'm shaking

I need a way to be able

To reach these rainbows I'm chasing

I'm so unfaithful to my state of mind

Only focused on getting by

Living minute to minute

Come take a second to get me high

I overdose on my downfalls

Going overboard till I drown off

I'm down on all of my luck

Going comatose is all that I count on

Only remedy and I'm sticking to it

Please don't pity me I'm sick and I think you knew it

Yeah I ****ing blew it again

Pretending that I could begin

To take a swing at getting better

When I'm surrounded by you it's just not fair

It's not fair to judge me when I'm by your side

I'm not me can't think straight and nothing's right

Nothing's right no

It's not fair to put me in your loving eyes

I can't breathe time stops ticking in my mind

Nothing's right no

Thought I made it but I'm feeling stupid now

Drinking till I'm falling cause my mind is so polluted now

I just wanna be free

I just wanna be free I just wanna be free

Please let me breathe

I just wanna be me I just wanna be me

Oh please don't leave

After a storm

I wanna be brave

And keep you warm

And not fade away

Jute