ADULT GIRL - MARINA

Lyrics by：Christopher J. Baran/Marina Diamandis

Composed by：Christopher J. Baran/Marina Diamandis

Produced by：CJ Baran/MARINA

I can let go of the flower

Now my power has returned

I can look back at the past

Now I see what I have learned

Try my best to act my age

But the child won't behave

She wants to scream and cry and rage

And who am I to dig her grave?

The teenage years I never lived

The innocence of high school kids

Young romance and endless nights

Of carefree joy and pure delight

Didn't grow up in a normal world

And now I'm just an adult girl

Now I'm too old to die young

But at least I had some fun

Spent my twenties on the run

Dreaming of suicide and love

Think I'm stuck somewhere between

Childhood and va-va-voom

Always cycling in between

Existential dread and doom

Messy numb razors and knives

Missed arteries and blacked-out nights

Kittens mittens plushie toys

Bows and hearts and sullen boys

Robbed me of a teenage world

Now I'm just an adult girl

An adult girl

Someone tell me how to heal

The terror living inside me

I don't even know what's real

I just know I wanna be free

All the things I lost and loved

Swept them underneath the rug

Like a child I wait and hope

You might repair the things you broke

Now I understand the world

Of adult boys 'cause I'm an adult girl

I'm an oyster without a pearl

But that's just how it is for an adult girl

An adult girl

Adult girl